Monday, November 24, 2014

Psalm Meditation 754
First Sunday of Advent
November 30, 2014

Psalm 13
1 How long, O LORD? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?
2 How long must I bear pain in my soul, and have sorrow in my heart all day long?
How long shall my enemy be exalted over me?
3 Consider and answer me, O LORD my God! Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep the sleep of death,
4 and my enemy will say, “I have prevailed”; my foes will rejoice because I am shaken.
5 But I trusted in your steadfast love; my heart shall rejoice in your salvation.
6 I will sing to the LORD, because he has dealt bountifully with me.
(NRSV)

As we live out our lives we become the bearers of pain and sorrow to some degree or another. Some seem to bear more than their share while others manage to avoid much of the suffering that goes with being human. Those who suffer will do so for the rest of their lives in some form. Suffering is not something that goes away, it is incorporated into the fabric of our lives. Physical wounds leave their imprint on us forever. Bones heal and flesh scars over, each leaving a mark that serves as a reminder of our injuries.

Emotional and spiritual wounds leave their mark as well. They are not as visible to the eye, perhaps because the wound is felt more deeply than skin and bone. Our temptation is to encourage folks to move past these deeper wounds more quickly, as if the lack of a physical mark makes them less damaging. In truth, these psychic wounds are frighteningly more damaging than any physical one. There are folks who will rehearse their grief, getting stuck at an early stage of the process and refusing to go any deeper. There are others who will mine the depths of grief and find a way to weave it into the lives that lie before them.

The psalmist decides to lean on the steadfast love of God. As is true for the rest of us, the hope is that God will take the suffering away, to make it as if it never happened. I can’t imagine going through life without reminders of suffering. The bittersweet memories, the harsh lessons, the mementos of experiences that are a part of us, even those we hope never to go through again. The steadfast love of God gives us a place to lean, a place to wait, a place to find a way to incorporate suffering into the wholeness of our lives from this day onward.

November 24, 2014
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Monday, November 17, 2014

Psalm Meditation 753
Reign of Christ Sunday
November 23, 2014

Psalm 139
1 O LORD, you have searched me and known me.
2 You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from far away.
3 You search out my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways.
4 Even before a word is on my tongue, O LORD, you know it completely.
5 You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is so high that I cannot attain it.
7 Where can I go from your spirit? Or where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I ascend to heaven, you are there; if I make my bed in Sheol, you are there.
9 If I take the wings of the morning and settle at the farthest limits of the sea,
10 even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light around me become night,”
12 even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is as bright as the day, for darkness is as light to you.
13 For it was you who formed my inward parts; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; that I know very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes beheld my unformed substance. In your book were written all the days that were formed for me, when none of them as yet existed.
17 How weighty to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
18 I try to count them—they are more than the sand; I come to the end—I am still with you.
19 O that you would kill the wicked, O God, and that the bloodthirsty would depart from me—
20 those who speak of you maliciously, and lift themselves up against you for evil!
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD? And do I not loathe those who rise up against you?
22 I hate them with perfect hatred; I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts.
24 See if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
(NRSV)

As a child I could not imagine how my parents knew what I was doing when I was supposed to be sleeping. How did they know I was up when I was supposed to be down, that my eyes were open when they were supposed to be closed, that I was whispering when I was supposed to be quiet? As I became a parent I realized that what felt like sneaking to me as a child was not nearly as sneaky as I thought. With upstairs bedrooms, even a child’s tip toe makes the downstairs ceiling creak and pop. If an adult can perceive the child’s attempt at stealth, how much more aware is God of my activities in any part of my life.

While it can be unnerving to know we are being watched when we would rather we were not, it is deeply comforting to know when we are insecure or otherwise afraid. To know that someone who loves us has eyes and ears open to our situation can give us the courage to move ahead, to take the next step, as our fears work to bring us to a halt. The knowledge that those eyes can see deeper than the surface and the ears hears more than our minds can imagine adds to the sense of comfort in the presence of God.

The psalmist asks that God search for all the wicked parts and pieces of heart and mind so that there is a clear path ahead. It is tempting to believe that we are able to find our way to God on our own strength and power, that we can muscle our way forward through all the trial and temptations and finally win our way to God. The psalmist reminds us that it is God who leads us best, who points out the spots to avoid, who makes it possible for us to find the way into the presence of God.

November 17, 2014
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Monday, November 10, 2014

Psalm Meditation 752
Twenty third Sunday of Ordinary Time
November 16, 2014

Psalm 62
1 For God alone my soul waits in silence; from him comes my salvation.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall never be shaken.
3 How long will you assail a person, will you batter your victim, all of you, as you would a leaning wall, a tottering fence?
4 Their only plan is to bring down a person of prominence. They take pleasure in falsehood; they bless with their mouths, but inwardly they curse. Selah
5 For God alone my soul waits in silence, for my hope is from him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
7 On God rests my deliverance and my honor; my mighty rock, my refuge is in God.
8 Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us. Selah
9 Those of low estate are but a breath, those of high estate are a delusion; in the balances they go up; they are together lighter than a breath.
10 Put no confidence in extortion, and set no vain hopes on robbery; if riches increase, do not set your heart on them.
11 Once God has spoken; twice have I heard this: that power belongs to God,
12 and steadfast love belongs to you, O Lord. For you repay to all according to their work.
(NRSV)

For many of us sitting in silence means that no sounds are coming out of our mouths and that we are not physically moving. Our minds are probably racing as we make lists of things we need or want to do, as we run through our list of joys and concerns, as we carry on our side of the conversation with God. Even reciting a centering word or phrase can drown out the God side of our conversation. While we are actually far from it, we give the outward impression that we are sitting silent in the presence of God.

There are folks who can sit in silence, who are present without a personal agenda, who are open to hear what is going on around them, whose centering phrase actually helps them to center themselves in God. These are the folks whose souls wait in silence in the presence of God. They are not letting their minds race, they are waiting to receive what God has to offer. These are the folks who listen to us in such a way that we know we are heard. They don’t interrupt us to get their word in, they may not even say anything until several beats after we have finished our side of the conversation. They have a particular gift of silence and presence.

God doesn’t force us to be something we are not. If we are impatient God does not make us wait until we have cultivated patience. God finds a way to sneak a word or phrase into our lists, slips a name or face into our joys and concerns, is patient with us in the midst of our impatience. Over time the presence of God will likely change us a bit. We will be able to open up a slightly larger space for God to work in us and through us as the years fly past us. We will find ourselves better able to open ourselves to the steadfast love of God in a wider variety of times and places. We will find ourselves seated firmly on the bedrock of God’s saving presence even as we fidget and squirm in our impatience.

November 10, 2014
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Monday, November 3, 2014

Psalm Meditation 751
Twenty second Sunday of Ordinary Time
November 9, 2014

Psalm 112
1 Praise the LORD! Happy are those who fear the LORD, who greatly delight in his commandments.
2 Their descendants will be mighty in the land; the generation of the upright will be blessed.
3 Wealth and riches are in their houses, and their righteousness endures forever.
4 They rise in the darkness as a light for the upright; they are gracious, merciful, and righteous.
5 It is well with those who deal generously and lend, who conduct their affairs with justice.
6 For the righteous will never be moved; they will be remembered forever.
7 They are not afraid of evil tidings; their hearts are firm, secure in the LORD.
8 Their hearts are steady, they will not be afraid; in the end they will look in triumph on their foes.
9 They have distributed freely, they have given to the poor; their righteousness endures forever; their horn is exalted in honor.
10 The wicked see it and are angry; they gnash their teeth and melt away; the desire of the wicked comes to nothing.
(NRSV)

For many of us our heroes are folks who have accomplished something noteworthy, something a large portion of the world has noticed. They may be rich, famous, influential or a combination of some of these or other celebrated characteristics. We have another list as well. It is the list of folks who have helped us in some way, especially a way that required sacrifice on their part. They have given us a piece of themselves along with any resources they may have offered. These two groups of folks are often at odds with one another.

Our heroes tell us to get all we can for as long as we can and don’t worry about any cost that doesn’t accrue directly to us. That is, don’t hesitate to step on or over someone as long as there is a sizable payoff on the other side. Our mentors, saints if you will, are ever mindful of the effect actions have on others. The reason they have taken us under their wings in the first place is because of their willingness to invest in others at the cost of their own fame and fortune. Perhaps the reason the student often surpasses the teacher is due to the teacher’s willingness to sacrifice for the sake of the student.

The psalmist celebrates these saints who give freely to those who have needs beyond their current resources. The wicked, who were synonymous with the rich, get upset when people give away perfectly good resources that could benefit the holder of that wealth more than the person who receives it. The fact that the saints calculate wealth in a whole different type of economics is lost on those who see wealth in terms of money and property. It comes down to a question of which will make a person happy for the long term. Some believe that happiness comes from wealth, fame and influence, while other believe that happiness comes from richness of relationships. The psalmist chooses to celebrate relationships.

November 3, 2014
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Monday, October 27, 2014

Psalm Meditation 750
Twenty first Sunday of Ordinary Time
November 2, 2014

Psalm 39
1 I said, “I will guard my ways that I may not sin with my tongue; I will keep a muzzle on my mouth as long as the wicked are in my presence.”
2 I was silent and still; I held my peace to no avail; my distress grew worse,
3 my heart became hot within me. While I mused, the fire burned; then I spoke with my tongue:
4 “LORD, let me know my end, and what is the measure of my days; let me know how fleeting my life is.
5 You have made my days a few handbreadths, and my lifetime is as nothing in your sight. Surely everyone stands as a mere breath. Selah
6 Surely everyone goes about like a shadow. Surely for nothing they are in turmoil; they heap up, and do not know who will gather.
7 “And now, O Lord, what do I wait for? My hope is in you.
8 Deliver me from all my transgressions. Do not make me the scorn of the fool.
9 I am silent; I do not open my mouth, for it is you who have done it.
10 Remove your stroke from me; I am worn down by the blows of your hand.
11 “You chastise mortals in punishment for sin, consuming like a moth what is dear to them; surely everyone is a mere breath. Selah
12 “Hear my prayer, O LORD, and give ear to my cry; do not hold your peace at my tears. For I am your passing guest, an alien, like all my forebears.
13 Turn your gaze away from me, that I may smile again, before I depart and am no more.”
(NRSV)

There is something comforting about knowing that we are under the complete control of another, until things stop going well for us. As children, it is does not even cross our minds that things cost money, time and effort. All we know is that there is food on the table, clothes to wear and a place to call home. We are unnerved to discover that things come to us at a cost that someone else has paid so that we can survive and thrive. The next surprise comes when we get to the point at which it is up to us to pay that price for ourselves and for others. We discover the kinds of sacrifices that folks made for our sakes with a sense of gratitude.

Part of the progression of religious faith development is that we begin with a sense that God provides everything for us, has our whole lives mapped out and all we need to do is follow the script God has written for us. Some folks are content to believe that there is no opportunity to depart from the script, we simply play out the parts in which we have been cast and all proceeds according to the will of God. As a theatre major in college, I had opportunity to work with directors who gave actors some leeway in interpreting the character. I have also worked with directors who did not tolerate even the slightest deviation from the script. There are folks who see God as one of these kinds of directors.

The older I get the more I see God encouraging improvisation. There is an arc, a direction in which God would like to see the story go and we are each allowed to exercise our free will in moving along that arc. God is so good at all this that as we change the shape of the arc by our words and actions God adapts the story arc to accommodate the changes we have made. All this to say that I believe God has given us free will, encourages us to exercise it, stays with us to love and support us when we do and is available to give us pointers and suggestions that move us all to closer relationship with God and with each other.

October 27, 2014
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Monday, October 20, 2014

Psalm Meditation 749
Twentieth Sunday of Ordinary Time
October 26, 2014

Psalm 89:1-15,49-52
1 I will sing of your steadfast love, O LORD, forever; with my mouth I will proclaim your faithfulness to all generations.
2 I declare that your steadfast love is established forever; your faithfulness is as firm as the heavens.
3 You said, “I have made a covenant with my chosen one, I have sworn to my servant David:
4 ‘I will establish your descendants forever, and build your throne for all generations.’” Selah
5 Let the heavens praise your wonders, O LORD, your faithfulness in the assembly of the holy ones.
6 For who in the skies can be compared to the LORD? Who among the heavenly beings is like the LORD,
7 a God feared in the council of the holy ones, great and awesome above all that are around him?
8 O LORD God of hosts, who is as mighty as you, O LORD? Your faithfulness surrounds you.
9 You rule the raging of the sea; when its waves rise, you still them.
10 You crushed Rahab like a carcass; you scattered your enemies with your mighty arm.
11 The heavens are yours, the earth also is yours; the world and all that is in it—you have founded them.
12 The north and the south—you created them; Tabor and Hermon joyously praise your name.
13 You have a mighty arm; strong is your hand, high your right hand.
14 Righteousness and justice are the foundation of your throne; steadfast love and faithfulness go before you.
15 Happy are the people who know the festal shout, who walk, O LORD, in the light of your countenance;
49 Lord, where is your steadfast love of old, which by your faithfulness you swore to David?
50 Remember, O Lord, how your servant is taunted; how I bear in my bosom the insults of the peoples,
51 with which your enemies taunt, O LORD, with which they taunted the footsteps of your anointed.
52 Blessed be the LORD forever. Amen and Amen.
(NRSV)

Remember when our parents could do anything and everything? They were there to protect us, to defend us, to feed and clothe us. Not only did they do these things they did them better than any of the other parents in the whole, wide world. At some point we realize that they have their limits, that they are not omnipotent, they are not perfect. For some of us, our parents become an embarrassment. More time passes and we begin to see that our parents are pretty wise and wonderful even though they have their limits. Many of us go through the same process with God.

We see God as able to do anything and everything, especially the things we want, the things that will make our lives easier, better and more fun. Then something happens. We ask God for something and it doesn’t happen. We are hurt and angry. We do our best to change something in the equation to keep our equilibrium. That doesn’t work either. I have found that it is much more fulfilling to see God as present rather than powerful, as loving instead of angry, as hospitable rather than hostile. God is not out to get us, not out to make our lives miserable and willing to be with us in all those times when things do not go according to our plan. When things do not go according to our plan we see God as a source of comfort in our suffering rather than the cause of all those things.

Is God with us? Yes. Does God protect us from all harm? No. Is God the cause of all the harm that befalls us or all the good that happens to and around us? No. God gathers us into loving arms and holds us as securely as we will allow. God offers us comfort through being present with us; not necessarily changing the situation at all, except by being with us. Sometimes knowing we are not alone makes all the difference in the world.

October 20, 2014
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Monday, October 13, 2014

Psalm Meditation 748
Nineteenth Sunday of Ordinary Time
October 19, 2014

Psalm 12
1 Help, O LORD, for there is no longer anyone who is godly; the faithful have disappeared from humankind.
2 They utter lies to each other; with flattering lips and a double heart they speak.
3 May the LORD cut off all flattering lips, the tongue that makes great boasts,
4 those who say, “With our tongues we will prevail; our lips are our own—who is our master?”
5 “Because the poor are despoiled, because the needy groan, I will now rise up,” says the LORD; “I will place them in the safety for which they long.”
6 The promises of the LORD are promises that are pure, silver refined in a furnace on the ground, purified seven times.
7 You, O LORD, will protect us; you will guard us from this generation forever.
8 On every side the wicked prowl, as vileness is exalted among humankind.
(NRSV)

I take some comfort in knowing that folks have been voicing these complaints for generations. We bemoan the loss of faith, the loss of godliness, the loss of humility and the ignoring of the poor by those who have the power to do something to change these issues. It serves as a reminder that while God loves those with money, power and influence, the primary sphere of concern is among those who are left out of the upper echelons of society. Those who have money, power and influence have no need of an advocate; they are able to care for themselves and meet their own needs. It is those who are left out, pushed out and marginalized who need God.

God does work among the rich and powerful. God works by reminding each of us that just because we can take advantage of another doesn’t mean it is a good idea to do it. God pokes and prods us to look at life from the vantage point of the one we would otherwise dismiss as unworthy of our care and attention. We don’t always get it right as we look to the needs of others, however it is good to consider the other so that one day we think to meet one of ‘those’ people, build a relationship with them and ask how we might better meet each other’s needs.

God continues to work among us, even when we are tempted to use any power and influence we may have to our own advantage over those who have less. God continues to give hope and help and worth to those who would not otherwise have any and works among the powerful as a reminder to care for those in need despite the temptation to leave them behind as unnecessary and burdensome. The presence of God among serves to protect us from the vileness that tempts us on every side.

October 13, 2014
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